Sorry I had to go.
Sorry I couldn't live in consistent pain.
Sorry I had trouble dealing with the way we lived our lives.
Sorry that it was hard to grasp the life.

I'm sorry I was unable to reach my full potential at the young age I was.
I'm sorry I was unable to illustrate or communicate my true feelings.
I'm sorry for the debt I left you in.
I'm sorry for the pain I have left you in.

Please know that I had to do this,
I had to do this for me.
Many times throughout my life I do many things for others,
Now it was time to do something for me.

It felt right. It felt like an answer. A completion. My choice.
I'm sorry for the evidence of no reasons.
I'm sorry that it will never be the same.
I'm sorry for a vacant spot that will be at the dinner table.

Sorry that I was unable to end the famine.
Sorry that I was unable to end the wars.
Sorry that I was unable to declare world peace.
Sorry that I was unable to grow old with you.

I'm sorry I had to go.
I'm sorry I had to leave this way.
I hope you'll still love me.
As I will love you forever.


© 2003 David Greg Harth
03.12.16.20:28:05@296NYC